Johnny Zero
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R.I.P Jeisa... I will miss you forever!
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Post by Johnny Zero on Jul 31, 2011 17:55:14 GMT -5
Since I am in Alpha and it's down at the moment, I decided to retire. Since last week, I tried writing and I can't. I never realize how hard it is to lose a good friend in and out of efeds.
Ant... I don't blame you for closing Syn... I do know how you feel...
When we have this show, it's gonna be hard as hell to write. I hope Jeisa gives me and everyone else strength because we're gonna need it...
Until then, I am gonna just relax..
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Post by adamantium on Aug 1, 2011 6:51:40 GMT -5
You shouldn't give up something you love doing..unless YOU want to, not because of something else or someone else.
Same goes for Ant.
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bishi
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I will always love you Jeis...I'll see you when it's my time babe. I promise.
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Post by bishi on Aug 2, 2011 7:36:24 GMT -5
This was a mixed decision for me...
Basically when I started the game it was in due to the fact that I could escape from real life from it. It was my pure escape. When I met Jeis, I started talking to her and grew to love her. In the end I found my escape was no longer in writing Hessingstock or any other character - it was in Jeis. Even when I wasnt talking to Jeis, I had her there to talk to if I should have chosen to go back. I still had my escape - but I had technically outgrown what I loved doing because I had found my new escape in something else.
I adored Jeis with everything in me, and I realised after she died that...it was all real. Everything was real. I really did love her and it took me this to really realise it. My real world and my eW world fused together and suddenly the game brought me no escape. I tried to write but had no fire to. Had nothing keeping me to the game - and since leaving it about a week ago now, I've pretty much...not felt better about a decision. My escape can now come in other things.
I miss Jeisa dearly, but I could not sit in eW, mourning her constantly which is what I would have done. I love Jeis to bits, she knows this...I just could not have kept going under the pretence that the game was my escape when clearly to me it wasn't.
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Post by Ken Davison on Aug 3, 2011 2:30:45 GMT -5
That is exactly why I am carrying on, using the character name of NV Laroux. Those who friended me on facebook already know why. Jeisa was the type of person that I envied, because of her pure heart and spirit. So in tribute to her, "Godly" Ken Davison has become NV Laroux.
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bishi
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I will always love you Jeis...I'll see you when it's my time babe. I promise.
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Post by bishi on Aug 4, 2011 3:36:33 GMT -5
IF (and big if) I ever return it'll be in full tribute to her.
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Post by Randy Dela Vega on Aug 4, 2011 12:14:57 GMT -5
I did think seriously about retiring but ken came to me with his idea and in tribute also to Jeisa me and Ken have started a tag team called "Devious Insanity"
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Johnny Zero
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R.I.P Jeisa... I will miss you forever!
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Post by Johnny Zero on Aug 5, 2011 17:06:07 GMT -5
Devious Insanity - I love THAT!
I dunno.. I am iffy about some things, I am waiting on Myke with Alpha... I hope he comes back.. I really love the place, but it's hard to be in the place where Jeisa was.. We always go to the same place, now I am alone...
Decisions too make..
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bishi
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I will always love you Jeis...I'll see you when it's my time babe. I promise.
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Post by bishi on Aug 5, 2011 17:58:24 GMT -5
This is TOTALLY a mix of life and stuff with me. Dude. DON'T quit. Seriously. Jeis would be so upset if you just upped and left the game because of this. She wouldn't be happy at all. Keep at it
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Post by kirsta on Aug 5, 2011 21:08:39 GMT -5
This game we play is funny at times and im saying this because of how we act outside of the game. specially the ladies and i am one of those too. we tend to not be as close to other ladies as we are the guys. for some of us those friendships go deep. I only wish that me and Jeis could have spoke more ooc then we did. she had a heart of gold and touched , the hearts of so many.
This is the second time that someone i know from the game is no longer there. I won't tell any of you that it will be easy because it won't.
Some of you may know Whitecloud though Efedding He was a rper and a great freiend to many. He was told he had 5 months to live and i sat with him on messenger while cancer ate him up inside. He only lived for three months.
We did a memorial show for him at MCW, the fed he created and have done one every year.
writing for that show was damn hard. typing though tears as i remembered certain matches and moments we shared. The best way to get though it is to just let it come, cry, remember and love those moments.
Jeis would want you all to go on with what you love doing, what she loved doing. She put everything into what she did.
She wouldnt want anyone to walk away from this. I felt the same as you all do. Doing a special show and paying tribute to her is the best way to honor her greatness and our memories both ic and ooc.
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Post by Ken Davison on Aug 5, 2011 21:48:02 GMT -5
Jeisa and I are kindred spirits. I will keep doing this to honor her. I will be here to hold any hands, lend my ear and be there for any of you. Kirsta is right. This isn't going to be easy. Now, more than ever, we need to put any differences we have aside and be there for one another.
Mr. Zero, I will send you a message on facebook with my cell. Call/text if you need anything. I might be passed out because of my work schedule, but as long as you let me know who it is (in case I don't know the number) I will get back to you.
The same goes for anyone here. If you need an ear, I will do my best to be there for you.
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Post by adamantium on Aug 8, 2011 13:43:47 GMT -5
All im going to say Zero, is what i said before. Do whats best for you man. Life is too short to not live it the way you want to.
Its universal that efedding is a game..a game in which can be played or not played and life will go on..
But if you like it..keep on doing it.
If your burnt out or the fun is missing..break from it man.
Like I told Ken, eventually, i think on the first anniversary of her death ..I will be taking up Sydney Laroux and playing her as my sister would have wanted.
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